I was born and raised in Palm Desert, California and currently lead in service as a Rapid Transformational Therapy (RTT) facilitator, The Metamorphic Mind (TMM) facilitator and Yoga Teacher Trainer. I have an extensive background as a yoga & meditation teacher (e-500 RYT YACEP) and am trained in RTT, Energy Healing, Ashtanga Vinyasa, Hatha Alignment, Yin Yoga, Yoga Nidra and mindfulness. In a yoga setting I am most appreciated for space holding, precise & clear instructional cues and mindful teaching techniques. 

Life has been an adventure and anything but linear. Whenever I’ve attempted to move in a conventional direction life would challenge me by turning upside down, sideways or backwards and this is how I learned to be fluid with change rather than resist it. While the nature of shifting and changing isn’t easy, it has taught me how to find stability in instability and that is something I still dance with each time it presents itself. Time has taught me to trust my intuition and experience has taught me the importance of listening to my heart. 

I believe that when we encounter certain challenging situations in life we are being initiated into either a new layer of experience or a replay of the same experience that comes to us in a new way. These initiations come with a choice point: to either choose ourselves or to choose outside of ourselves. When the choice point is to choose ourselves and we can lean into the obstacles, the challenges, the dissonance we are being presented with, we stretch the capacity of our minds and expand our awareness. When we can stretch the capacity of our minds we grow in knowledge and understanding and our perspective becomes profound rather than narrow and limited. When we expand our awareness, we expand our consciousness and when we expand our consciousness, our life expands and we expand. This is the wisdom we are gifted when we listen to the heart with presence and reverence. In an expanded state we can perceive and map out that life is happening for us rather than to us. Knowing and believing that life is happening in your favor changes the way you view life and the way you think about yourself and this fundamentally changes your beliefs. What you believe influences what you perceive and what you perceive influences what you recieve. Your beliefs are everything. 

When we choose outside of ourselves we simply give space for the same situation of dissonance to make its way to us again in a new way. This is what I call looping. The energy of looping looks like encountering a similar situation, behavior, person or event time and time again until we become present with our heart and continue to choose and show up for ourselves. It is my belief system that neither way is right or wrong, it just is.

From a very young age I learned how to put others' needs before my own, to minimize myself and ultimately give my power away or trade a piece of my soul in exchange for what felt like safety, love and belonging. This what I learned would make me feel safe in my relationships and as a child it’s how my brilliant mind protected me, kept me happy and allowed me to emotionally survive. Many of us grew up in environments where our basic needs like being loved, nurtured and protected weren't being met and as a result we learned behaviors and beliefs that served in one phase of life and are now outdated. As I grew into adulthood I carried these same beliefs with me; that receiving love was transactional (which taught me I needed to always give in order to receive a basic need) and that I needed to choose outside of myself in order to have my basic needs met (which taught me I wasn't enough as I am). These are all learned behaviors and learned beliefs that sometimes show up in very obvious ways and sometimes in very subtle ways. My adult-self would continue to loop and to operate by choosing outside of myself because the beliefs we learn in childhood stay with us until we realize that we are operating off of expired beliefs that were once serving but are now hurting us, holding us back and keeping us in a state of fracture, fray and falsity. 

So, why am I sharing this? Because for a long time I was looping and at some stage we all find ourselves looping. It is essential [for our growth] that we take notice of what keeps showing up in our lives so we can figure out what it is that keeps us stuck. The energy of stale and stuck beliefs can manifest as both physical and emotional ailments which greatly affects our overall well being, but it doesn't have to be like that forever. Looking into the depths of yourself in this way may seem scary but, freedom is always on the other side of fear.

The last big loop I experienced led me into a pretty heavy space that I didn’t see myself getting out of; which is never a good thing and also an invitation to make a huge shift in growth and healing (not that I could see the light at the end of the tunnel when I was “in it”). It was Spring 2021 and I was so confused with where life had led me. Covid had unexpectedly displaced me back in the US away from Thailand where I had been living for 3 years. Thailand was familiar, it was my home. I was living a life of purpose there teaching yoga and focusing on myself. It was the place I had initially gone to for a short time to recover and rebuild from a deeply wounding betrayal and ended up staying and finding beautiful life there. For those 3 years I was doing all the things you do to find yourself and heal your heart: daily yoga, daily meditation, self study, self reflection, self care, reparenting, connecting with my inner child -you name it- I was doing deep work on myself and yet here I was again, Spring of 2021, in a loop. All I could wonder was, “Am I being punished? What am I doing wrong?”. The heartbreak from previous years had already been weighing heavy on my spirit and sometimes it felt like I was white-knuckling my desire to live life fully. For so many years my only reprieve was teaching yoga and now in the wake of COVID that life was on major hold, relationships were dismantling and life around me was unraveling, yet again. Certain people around me told me that what was happening was all my fault and initially I believed them which sent me into a spiral of anxiety. I wondered what was wrong with me and if I was really that broken and that hard to love. For a time my mind bought into these narratives and thankfully my heart never took ownership of them. On the outside I think I was holding it together but on the inside and in my aloneness, I was living on the edge of a cliff. It was a dark night of the soul like I had never experienced. Towards the end of summer something in me shifted and I began to show up for myself more lovingly, with presence and reverence, amidst this darkness. I stopped numbing out and started to be in my body and just feel. It was time to take a really deep look at the patterns of behavior I was tolerating within myself and how I was manipulating my own needs to stay safe and feel loved by others. I saw patterns in my personal, professional and platonic relationships and realized that some of the people closest to me were mirroring unhealthy dynamics from childhood. I separated from several long standing connections that I never thought I’d be able to live without. I had to show up and rally for myself, protect my energy and find my feet so I could move in a better direction. I knew I didn’t want to loop like this ever again. 

That was when Rapid Transformational Therapy came into my life and I learned how to sit deeply with my beliefs so I could understand them and rewrite them. I have had a lot to look at, unravel, dismantle and heal and I am still showing up from myself in these ways almost everyday. Using RTT, hypnotherapy and working in the theta brainwave state has given me the space to examine my beliefs, one by one, so I could find the root cause of where they came from. Once we understand where our beliefs come from we can change, transmute and transform the thoughts and beliefs that keep us in fracture, fray and/or falsity. The thoughts that keep us limited. The thoughts that keep us looping. 

You are not broken and you don't need to be fixed, it’s just time for an upgrade. This mind-body-brain medicine gives you the tools to rewire your biology, rewrite your beliefs and alchemize who you once were into who you are meant to be so you can live a life of freedom. My mission is to take what has worked for me and share it with you, so you can raise your thoughts beyond the limits of your beliefs. 

I have learned how to work with my brain to change my mind about the things that aren’t serving my highest good, my highest potential and my highest Self and I can say with certainty this is how you call your power back, love yourself and feel whole again.

It wasn't until I was 30 years old that I first experienced what it felt like to choose myself— and how the bravery of one decision would lead me to discovering that there were pieces of me that I had given away and needed to reclaim and how choosing myself -over and over again- would completely liberate my life.